Clicking on publish is like clicking on send; often, there is something missing, a thought misspoken, an error (in logic, discretion, worldview, judgment) uncorrected, a typo uncaught.
In the case of the dr. and the ms, I did miss something – other than typos or flaws in prose, lol. In addition to the very public mall meltdown, I had some other indications that my bipolar 2 wasn’t quite under control – even before I cut the dosage due to “fix” my increased cognitive skills and physical ability.
I’ve had mini-hypo/mania episodes since I was sick after Memorial Day. When stress levels went up, I reverted to bipolar 2 reactions: binged on food (mostly sugary stuff); had a shopping spree or two (didn’t completely explode June’s budget); was sensitive/overreacted; had a screaming angry fit or two; and generally behaved ”out of control” of events/situations.
Need to regain some semblance of self-control. Yet another item to add to my “stressed there and back again/overwhelmedness” list. Double sigh. (cut and paste seems to have reverted text to arial, sigh again).
(Late spring/early summer bathroom mirror photo shoot. Feel like hiding behind the camera image these days.)
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I love salt….so that would make me happy…lol…ur a great example of how life can be managed…some days are outta control, others rather pleasant…some in between…whether we hav bipolar, depression, anxiety…we are all people who need to live our live without judgment…it all a juggling act…not easy for sure…but ur an inspiration to all…you’re intelligent and strong and caring…you have alot of people who admire how you handle all the adversity in life…keep on keepin on my deary!
Thanks Tammy! Sometimes I feel like I’m juggling chain-saws while wearing a blind fold!
You’re an inspiration, too, and I really appreciate the quotes, images, posters you share on Face Book. I look forward to see what you’ve shared since I last was in Face Book.
Take good care, and keep on trucking!
You are doing better. Focus on what is working.
Thanks for the encouragement.
Found out tonight that my sodium is below the low norm. Some of the symptoms of low sodium are similar to what I’ve been experiencing. The cause, in my case, is one of the pysch meds I’ve already stepped down due to the strange cumlative side effects I’ve been having. Other meds can cause this, as well as certain medical conditions. The new regime the GI guy has me on includes drinking ALOT of water — which is not good for your sodium levels.
My mother had low sodium too. So, there could be a predisposition in my family to have low sodium levels. Just the way I have naturally high cholestrol (spelling) from my dad and his side of the family.
Anyway, it’s a great excuse to eat salty snacks, any potato product, corn on the cob — I really don’t use much salt, but knowing that my sodium levels might go down, I’ve been eating more salt. Heck, now I can buy salted butter if I want (don’t tell my pcp).