This should have appeared as an * footnote for can I continue. I cut it by mistake — not unusual given my current mental and physical state. What a time to start feeling more ill – during a blogathon about health care, chronic illnesses, etc. Catch up, thy name is tattooed on my arm. (just kidding re the tattoo!)
*The more you know the harder it can be to write; to distill all that info into 142 character world, or a brief, informative, funny, or inspirational blog post. Good example, my struggles with day 8 animals. The trouble with heffalumps, woozles (not tribbles) and such is there are film/animation folk, reviewers, “fan” clubs, stage shows – in other words scholars from various disciplines have a lot of media to mine. Also, I didn’t realize there were variations on the heffalump theme. Perhaps I was thinking back to the story books, adding in Dumbo’s pink elephants, and my own 3 year old imagination. But I feel like I have to describe lay down so much groundwork re heffalumps, there leaves very little time for me to say why a heffalump is the animal of my chronic pain.
Clicking on publish is like clicking on send; often, there is something missing, a thought misspoken, an error (in logic, discretion, worldview, judgment) uncorrected, a typo uncaught.
In the case of the dr. and the ms, I did miss something – other than typos or flaws in prose, lol. In addition to the very public mall meltdown, I had some other indications that my bipolar 2 wasn’t quite under control – even before I cut the dosage due to “fix” my increased cognitive skills and physical ability.
I’ve had mini-hypo/mania episodes since I was sick after Memorial Day. When stress levels went up, I reverted to bipolar 2 reactions: binged on food (mostly sugary stuff); had a shopping spree or two (didn’t completely explode June’s budget); was sensitive/overreacted; had a screaming angry fit or two; and generally behaved ”out of control” of events/situations.
Need to regain some semblance of self-control. Yet another item to add to my “stressed there and back again/overwhelmedness” list. Double sigh. (cut and paste seems to have reverted text to arial, sigh again).
(Late spring/early summer bathroom mirror photo shoot. Feel like hiding behind the camera image these days.)