That blog was not meant to alienate or malign those folks who I used to have a lively comments/commentary and chat with. I realize that you folks are all busy with your own life, you’re spending time with you real and virtual friends (furries included too); and distanced themselves when I realized the depth of my mental health issues. I understand that – that distancing has been going on for a while now, even before my meltdown and trip to ER.
My blog hasn’t been much of anything lately – snippets of poets, rants on the mental health care system, and my in-laws and flesh and blood relatives. Nothing uplifting, nothing important, nothing inspirational or creative; all the things that make other bloggers and facebook folks have so many followers.
But it does hurt when I leave a comment to which the blogger doesn’t reply, but does reply in glowing terms to others who comment. If you don’t want me to leave comments on your blog, or don’t want me to send messages or share things on face book, just let me know. I’m used to being told to back away, to disappear, to be invisible.
There are virtual folks who got me through 2010 and 2011 – very rough years, and I thank them for it. You were very helpful and supportive. And, I realize that you have moved on; distanced yourself from me. While it does hurt to not have comments acknowledged, or ending threads of conversations in facebook groups, I understand the reasons why.
I just didn’t want some folks to think I hadn’t appreciated the friendships we had. I did. I just wish we had them back again.
PS: I’m happy to see that at least 2 of the folks I nominated for the WEGO award are getting recognition. I know it wasn’t my nomination, but at least they will be getting the publicity, the awards, and the recognition they deserve. I’m glad someone else saw the same folks are being important bloggers!