it would be so easy: tired surrender mlm prompt 42

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“It would be to so easy,” she thought. “Just so easy.”

Words swirled in blurs around her head. One would come into more direct focus for a flash. Surrender was in dark heavy gothic font; accept was a bright yellow with spritely letters. Succumb was shot through with black holes and silver glitter; relinquish in a somber times new roman.

There was a string tied around her finger. To remind her. Remind her of what? Thinking made her head throb. There had to be a reason: to the string; to the pain; to the words.

“Open your mind,” she thought. “See beyond now.” She mentally brushed the circling words away though the effort was exhausting. Faint shadows in the periphery. Concentrating, she willed the images into the foreground.

Picnics, wildflowers, fairy lights, storms, panic, fear, joy, disappointment, dancing, wine bottles, and . . .  tired surrender. Letting go not just of dreams or nightmares, but letting go of self. To leave on the ultimate journey. “Just so easy.”

Someone was calling her name; at least she thought it was hers to claim. The voice was far off, call muffled as if wind whipped the words away from the speaker’s mouth and scattered them in mountain valleys. Echoes of what might have been said.

She wanted to listen for the call again. To know she wasn’t alone, forgotten, abandoned. That someone knew her, knew her name, maybe knew her soul. It was slipping too, like memories, like feeling, like existence.

Her halo, her crown, her aura, the pool of blood around her head grew slowly. Time ticked. Between lightening bolts, she clearly saw herself on the floor, on a blanket, by a window. Stroboscopic movement between worlds. A bit of frayed string, tying her to an anchor against the storm of pain.

Was someone stroking her hair? Lifting her off the floor or pulling her down from the ceiling? She couldn’t get her eyes to open, or her lips to move. “This must be my guide,” she noted, floating. “My guide.”

copyright @ phylor 2014 {response to mindlovemisery prompt 42: tired surrender}

 

 

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9 thoughts on “it would be so easy: tired surrender mlm prompt 42

  1. summerstommy2 February 18, 2014 / 5:30 am

    I really liked this take. excellent piece of writing. well done.

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    • phylor February 18, 2014 / 9:52 am

      Thanks! And, thanks too for dropping by.

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  2. mindlovemisery February 10, 2014 / 2:38 am

    This is fantastic! My brain isn’t awake despite my heart’s insistence so alas I can only say wow great job!

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    • phylor February 9, 2014 / 5:40 pm

      Thanks for the like — your gravatar is just taking the long way round. Checking out other posts on tired surrender I suspect.

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