October 6: Frustration
In the healing process, there will be frustrations and setbacks – too many to list in 5 minutes. For example:
I am a chronic depressive. Anti-depressants are like sugar pills. If there is any benefit, it’s usually at best for about 6 months. Increasing the dose makes no difference. When the efficacy wears off, I am twice as depressed, and cry much more. There are only a handful of anti-depressants that I haven’t tried.
I get frustrated with the prescriber. I KNOW that anti-depressants usually don’t work, and am often prescribed a “new” or an “old” one with the same results. I also warn them that extended release medication can be problematic. How much I absorb and how much I reject of the later released medication varies from medication to medication, and how my digestive system is functioning.
The issue is the same with coated medication. I can only guarantee some absorption if I make a small scratch in the coating. Medications and my digestive system aren’t in tune.
And, I know that the prescriber gets frustrated with me if the anti-depressants don’t work, and/or they and other medications aren’t completely absorbed. I warn them from the beginning that I will be a unique patient, and ask if they are ready for me and my quirks.