“Prompts come in many different forms. Sometimes, a single word is all you need to get your mind’s wheels turning. Here are six words: HOPE; REGRET; HOME; CHOICE; ABUNDANCE’; SECRET. Select one word in this list that speaks to you in some way.”
Writing Assignment 3, Writing 101, Blogging U. 3.11.15
The sum of my life ’til then:
Home is always where you’re not”
A colleague once noted that “for you, home is always where you’re not.” There is a fluidity to this notion that I like. As a child, we were constantly on the move. Why I found Laura Ingalls Wilder’s Little House on the Prairie so compelling. Charles, Laura’s father, suffered from a kind of claustrophobia. Laura describes him as a man who needed room and space. Thus, when he perceived civilization (as judged by the nearness of neighbours) too close, it was time for the Ingalls family to move, and for Laura to begin yet another journey. And, of course, an adventure.
So, I identified with the Ingalls – no where to call “home.” My grandmother’s house was less than welcoming, and haunted. My maternal aunt’s farm was a constant, but allergies made staying there for too long abysmal. My parents bought their first house when my father retired. The house I inherited 15 years later. Familiar items in only slightly familiar surroundings. The endless task of sorting (keep, donate, sell, trash), yard sales, e=bay searching/pricing. A task that wore me down into sickness further distancing myself from the last house my parents lived in. Memories of other houses, other families, other lives.
I have an idealized sense of home. A tiny tidy white house. Small front porch. Sheltered/shaded by ancient apple and weeping willow trees. If urban the “front lawn” a wildflower garden. Vegetables and herbs growing in raised beds. Inside, like the Ikea “homes” in their stores – small spaces turned into livable by Ikea design. Need a bathroom (with an incredible shower!); kitchen; eating room/space, creative “corner;” bedroom, visiting room. A mash-up of the tiny spaces we have rented and the magic sprinkle of belonging, centeredness to create the zen of home.