out of the blogging closet

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After blogging here from fall 2009 to 2016 as phylor, finally reaching an unheard of for me, number of followers and views, I stopped. I had been here as phylor too long, drifting. Still feeling on the outside.

Going through a strong emotional and life-defying crisis when the medications didn’t keep me stable, the antidepressants made me more depressed, and my body rebelled in a thousand ways. The prompting duties, like any duty, responsibility or task became too much and I bowed out to a gracious co-host. Who took me back, on spec, when I felt stronger later.

The followers didn’t follow, but I no longer pay attention to stats. I have gotten over stats and comments jealousy unless I’m fully encased in my bipolarsphere.

I shifted to another blog, as stated, to blend with a second personae who was not so separate at times – I’m not good at such things – and technologically had become increasingly difficult to keep apart. With variations, I blogged, still as a pseudo – not yet ready to reveal any more of myself. Oh, I spill my guts obviously and between the lines, keep up the pretense there is a veil before my face.

Then, in participating in an on-going challenge, the moderator asked what the heck to call me, I took a deep breath and said, “Lorraine.” One step closer to me. One layer of that veil removed.

I dance with my bubble maker on the lawn at times – or try too. Guess now it’s the dance of the six veils . . . .

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9 thoughts on “out of the blogging closet

  1. Sheri December 22, 2016 / 2:32 pm

    How do you do, Lorraine. I look forward to getting to know you better. ☺

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      • Sheri December 22, 2016 / 7:14 pm

        Yes I have, and I made the connection. Here, I was simply acknowledging your courage of revealing a small part of yourself.

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        • taleweavering December 22, 2016 / 7:16 pm

          Thanks Sheri — I get confused, sometimes, since I made the move.
          I appreciate your acknowledgement — it is a big departure for me.
          How are you feeling — still can’t face facebook.

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          • Sheri December 22, 2016 / 7:31 pm

            Some days are good, others not so much. Are you on Twitter?

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            • taleweavering December 23, 2016 / 10:15 pm

              No, I just recently got a phone that can handle text. I do have a twitter account, I think, for this blog, but all it does is generate a notice. I’ve never used it to talk.
              I have used facebook chat, if you ever are on that. I have to come “over here” I think, to check and see who is on.
              I was not made for the modern world.

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                • taleweavering December 23, 2016 / 10:20 pm

                  Thanks — maybe I’ll be able to facebook again. I’ll struggling to read other blogs and write. Damn drugs and such.

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